Do you ever get days when you don’t want to do anything?
This morning I was heading into a slump, I hate feeling like this. One of those days for me means that everything is a bit shit, I think it stemmed from the fact that I didn’t have a very good nights sleep worrying that I’m failing at motherhood (had a bad day with him yesterday). I had a day off yesterday and normally a couple of hours clothes shopping would’ve helped but of course it’s different times and shops are closed so I came home after an appointment and did some writing. There was housework to be done but I made a decision that I would have a couple of hours to myself and flung myself into a couple of online writing workshops in the hope to boost my confidence and ended up giving my blog a make-over.
I’ve been so undecided about my blog lately, I get so disheartened and I quite like not having the extra pressure and doing it for myself. I had a Facebook page because I felt like it was a great way of communicating what we’ve been up to during the pandemic (sad isn’t it when the best communication is via social media but I guess it’s what you make it), although I didn’t really get any response from my posts.
The hardest thing I’ve found is getting someone to give me feedback or pointers, I don’t have the confidence to publish on a blogging site exposing it to elements of social media and lots of negative comments. So I thought I’d start by asking friends and family and maybe build myself up to it so shared a link to my blog on my personal Facebook page yesterday hoping for just a couple of comments to lead me in the direction of where I need to go, however I didn’t get any comments or messages. Now I wonder if I’m doing the right thing, do I continue with the blog? Is it really that bad that my friends and family don’t have a way to explain that actually “don’t give up the day job?” I know people have a lot on their plate at the moment, so maybe it’s that? If you read a blog though and you liked it would you say so? Or would you leave it for someone else to give feedback?
I’m trying to summon the inclination and confidence to start a new book, because of the mess of the last one (long story). I need to get my head round a new one and maybe use some of the content from the last one because I spent so much time and energy on it.
All this whilst looking forward to a week off (week after next) with my delight of a not so little four year old boy, I don’t think I’ll get time for much writing but I will try and fit some in in between ‘life’.
The slump stayed with me, so this morning I set about giving the house a proper clean because that’s another way of dealing with it. William ‘helped’ Mike in the garden while I was on a cleaning frenzy and now the house is lovely and clean, it was a great therapy having a good clean and it was so nice to have the windows open and enjoy the fresh air.
This slump has finally left me, after practically a whole day, but if I didn’t do something I would’ve just done nothing. At least this way I can feel myself, and the bonus is that I can enjoy the rest of the weekend!!
Do you get the slump? What do you do to deal with it, do you use distraction or just sit it out?